Dad .

Its funny now, how we're comunicatinq, it seem so surreal, one minute i didnt even wanna deal w/ u & ur other family, but now im dealinq.. copinq w/ the circumstances tht ur in, like ima wife or sumtin, i knw tht God has a real purpos, or sumtin, it feels.. weird, writin u, cuz many times i wanna ask.. where have u been ? u were only here.. my first day of k5, but im 15 now dad, the years went by.. u put the other kids b4 me, but i was number1, im thinkin they shoulda came last, remember.. IM NUMBER ONE ! ive had to deal w/ many thinqs.. the short time ive been on earth, our relationship could explain why i dnt trust males, dad, u broke my heart, all the time, u promised me thinqs, that u couldnt keep, u didnt listen, to me u didnt care, u havent dun much of nutn for me... not a thinq, u havent been there for my birthdays, easter, anythinq, but now.. u want us to start over.. as if im 5 aqain. like i will forqet everythinq and be a child aqain.. i cant say i dnt love u, cuz tht will be a lie, but im kinda dun w/ the qames, tired of cryinq, tired of havinq my horrible trust issues, becuz of u, i dnt trust a soul . i cant let my quard down.. cuz i`ll qet hurt, ppl dnt knw the struqqle of havin one parent, when ur dad was always qone, made a family of his own, & wanted u 2 come visit, like yall should be one.. uqh ! im down w/ it, maybe i should start overrrrrrrrr ?!